So now it is national son day! For whatever reason this happens twice a year maybe because sons are a special treasure to their mom. There’s just this place in my heart.
I adore my sons. They’ve doubled me over with laughter and brought me to my knees in tears. They’ve inspired me and pushed me. They’ve challenged me. The best chapter in my life has been about being a mom. And now, I find myself on the other side of parenting with my three sons, and it is different, and, I confess, a little sad.
No more constant chaos and crazy life. The rush and business of complicated schedules is a thing of the past, as it relates to parenting anyway. Things have definitely settled down.
But, I totally miss the insanity those parenting days. It was chaotic structure. It was fun, actually, it was a blast! Everyday was significant and an adventure. We didn’t just “make it” or “survive” we thrived!
I am so fortunate to always have been close to my boys. There were no secrets, and yeah, as a mom that was sometimes uncomfortable. But that is us, we jumped into each other’s messes and walked dirty together. We still do.
But, now we are on the other end and I find myself feeling so melancholy. Everyday I am missing those little boys and teens that reshaped such a simple woman.
Oh how I miss watching them play sports and no, not just because they are amazing athletes – which they most definitely are- it was just so much fun! Many life building moments together and we shared the journey with them. I miss choir concerts, field trips, projects, dirt, messes, tickle wars, snuggles, parties, adventures, late night talks, family days, date nights and hanging out. I miss all of it! And I even miss those rough conversations of discipline. It was there I witnessed the Holy Spirit work in their lives. I just have been blessed beyond reason by these three.
Now they are grown, and we are even closer. We have adult conversations and they are pretty cool. They think in ways I never thought. They teach me, they educate me, they explain things to me￼￼￼￼. They are so much smarter in every area. They help me see things through a lens that is much broader than mine.
I don’t know, I just love these guys. They are genuinely amazing men. There is a kindness and compassion that is solid. They chase after Jesus and stand on His Word. They don’t always get it right but they are humble enough to recognize when they make mistakes. They’ve made their faith their own and they are soaring on wings of eagles.
So, as ridiculous and as silly as this Hallmark day is, I honor three of the most important men in my life, my sons.
Love you Kenny Alcosiba, Kevin Alcosiba and Kyle Alcosiba￼￼￼ your mama is always in your corner, your loudest cheerleader and biggest fan.